Wednesday, 27 February 2013

2013...Not my year so far thats for sure

I posted a quite deep and dark post on here towards the end of last year around October, November time when I was going through a really bad phase. Through the help and support of friends and family I managed to get myself fully out of the funk and in a great place. But life can change and as we all know at times its like being on a roller-coaster. Full of up's and down's. And unfortunately nothing in my life has prepared myself for the start of 2013 which I have had. It's been shock after shock after shock and I have had to pretty much deal with every single emotion that you could think of in life.

Everybody says these things "come in 3's", everyone says that "things can only get better from here". Well after 5 different things that have occurred in just over a month, both those statements don't particularly ring true lets be honest. Those that are close to me know what i have had to deal with, and I can't exactly blast it on here to be honest, but lets just say a movie could be made on whats been going on! The key is to come out of all of these experiences with your head high and with positives.

The main positive I have had is that I am so open to talk about my problems. I have learnt that when you bottle everything up it makes things a million times worse to deal with and just ends up eating away at you. When you shut yourself off from people and become a bit of a recluse, it again will mess with your mind. The mind is seriously a dangerous thing and when you can't stop it from working, it can be hard to deal with. I could name so many of my friends that have been there every step of the way. They have listened over and over again to everything that was going on and never ever passed judgement on the situation, just listened. Those listening skills are so key to any relationship, whether its family, friends or a loved one, something which i pride myself to do for all the people close in my life.

A great quote one of my friends sent me yesterday:

"It's about getting up one more time than being knocked down"

(Boozey 2013 - his nickname and sure the quote is from a famous philosopher of some sort)

This is such a great quote though and so true. If someone or something causes you to be knocked down, why give them the satisfaction of seeing you stay down. Get up and comeback stronger and its what I am trying desperately hard to do.

I'm going to post some more quotes on here to end this short post off that are important to me.

"You only live once"

"What goes around comes around" (karma)

"You are confined only by the walls you build yourself"
"Take risks: If you win you will be happy. If you lose you will be wise"

"Learn from yesterday - Live for Today - Hope for tomorrow"

"Happiness is when what you think, what you say and what you do are in harmony" (Gandhi)

"Work for a cause NOT for applause. Live life to express, NOT to impress. Don't strive to make your presence noticed, just make your absence felt"

"Always laugh when you can, it is a cheap medicine"

"The soul always knows what to do to heal itself. The challenge is to silence the mind"

"No matter how hard the past, you can always BEGIN AGAIN"

And the last one.....

"The trick is to ENJOY LIFE. Don't wish away your days, waiting for better ones ahead."

Monday, 4 February 2013

Great start to February

My last post went into detail about the only modeling job I had in January. Not a bad one to have of course having the trip to the Maldives, but the rest of the month was very quiet, something that you have to get used to in the industry. Thats why its all well and good getting a good job here and there, but without filling the rest of your time up, the money earned has to be spread across the quiet times, something that finally I am starting to become more sensible about. Anyhow, January may have been quiet, but I have hit the ground running in February already and its only the 4th today!


On Friday I booked a little journey up out of London to the George Asda offices in Rugby, close to Leicester. Early start for me, something that I am certainly not used to one bit! Gets tough sometimes when your body clock is constantly changing, but with the weekend off ahead of me, I was all good. Plus it was only a fitting too.
Now, for those of you who are not sure what exactly a fitting is, please don't laugh. I simply get given different clothes to try on, a couple of quick snaps and change. The fittings are often for a future shoot for the company or for the designer to check how clothes lie on someone. That is it, very very simple.

I was at the fitting with a girl model who I have worked with before, which is always a bonus. Though as we weren't shooting anything together it wasn't a problem as it is. We just alternated outfits and shots for a couple of hours maximum. That was it. Then lunch and a check of the shots, and one more outfit and I was done. A very very easy day. The pay is never that great for a fitting, but for what I actually did it wasn't too bad at all and I certainly am not complaining one bit.


Now this one is a real result and a company like this is something that could become regular work if they like you and you do a good job. An online clothing company and one of the biggest in the country. I had a casting for this job a couple of weeks ago. Slightly embarrassing as it is for their swimwear range and mainly speedos!!! So the casting I had to get changed into some small speedos, with an even tighter under speedo (just to be clean ;-)), make sure nothing was hanging out and out I came. ha ha. Let's be honest, you have to think of these things, as your not going to get the job if they shoot you and your left nut is hanging out ha ha (anyone seen the inbetweeners will know what I mean!). I had to stand and wait for what seemed like an eternity in front of a lot of people in the office/studio space while they finished something off, but was probably only 5 minutes. Had to have a few shots taken, turn round and a few more and that was it. My face cut out of the shots as it is an unrecognizable shoot (yeah yeah I know what your all thinking, too ugly for it....probably ha ha). I walked away from the casting, not knowing whether they liked me or not,n but fortunately they did!

Booked for just a few hours work on a Monday morning, when I don't have a clash of my presenting work or anything is a real bonus. I am sat writing this in the studio as we take our time getting ready for the shoot and it looks as though there are only about 10 items, but I'm sure that will change no doubt, fingers crossed it doesn't. The main thing is that I need to ensure I make a good impression and they use me again. A regular client for models is absolutely vital to earn regular money.

The job went fine, very very simple trying on a variety of different swim wear, mainly speedos that were rather tight! Very difficult to shy away when in that situation. ha ha ha. Sure the shots will be up on the website very soon no doubt for all to see. It will be a good test to see if anyone recognises its me! ha ha. Now I just have to hope that they want to use me again for some more work, and to turn them into a regular client would be absolutely fantastic.


Amazingly for the 3rd working day of the month I have a 3rd job in a row. Diet Coke, sounds amazing right? Sounds like I'm about to tell you I am going to be the Diet Coke Man? (I wish - though did have a casting pre christmas for that job, didn't get it obviously as it would have been all over my social network and YOU would of known about it believe me!) It's for a channel 4 promo to celebrate Diet Cokes birthday. I had the casting for it a couple of weeks ago, shirtless again and just had to do a variety of poses and that was it. 6 guys booked so very happy, even though its not a huge job, I'm not being fussy believe me.
It's a compliment to myself to be booking shirtless jobs at the moment and means that the work I am putting in the gym and how much I'm concentrating on my diet is starting to really pay off. 6 years as a model, I thought it was about time I took my job a bit more seriously, and the more work I'm getting really proved that I should have been doing this when I first started, but hey. Can't change the past and all.

No idea what i will have to do tomorrow but I am certain I will be blogging about it, as it seems to be something I have never even done before in the past. Sure it will be fun though no doubt. There is George Lamb and Rick Edwards from Channel 4 who will be there as well, so could be rather intriguing.

Right hope your well, thanks again for taking the time out to read my blog. I've had a lot going on this past month that has certainly been a huge learning curve, but will go into that another time. All is well and looking forward to the rest of the month