Friday, 26 October 2012

POSITIVE MENTAL ATTITUDE - Moving forward and moving to London

Well that last post 2 weeks ago was rather depressing wasn't it?!?! First of all I would just like to thank those who read my post and contacted me about it, much appreciated to know there are so many out there that care and I hope that many know that I am always here to return the favor to anyone in need.

Feeling down about things is something that happens to everyone at some point in their life. It happens to people living on the streets, it happens to people who are rich and famous too, it doesn't matter what your life status is, the mind is such a powerful thing, for good and bad. I was in a state of mind that wasn't letting me progress forward and was not letting me get the past out of my head. I was jumping at anything said to me and quite frankly just miserable. I started to believe that every day I was down, when in fact it was just all in my mind.

Life is hard yes, but life has such amazing qualities too. These qualities are the ones that makes life so enjoyable and worthwhile. I have an amazing family, one in which I am so greatful for their constant support, guidance and happiness they provide me. The friends I have around me are one in a trillion believe me, there for me no matter what and always around to pick me up if needed. This is something that I pride myself on being for my friends too. Having their backs, being there in their times of need is such an incredible feeling to be able to provide that, means so much and gives life more meaning too. And finally my work. I work in a tough industry don't get me wrong, but one that has allowed me to travel all round the world, has allowed me freedom to do so much and that does provide me with a lot of satisfaction and keeps me out of an office 24 7. I am one of the most fortunate people in the world. And this hit me a few days ago and I just sorted my head straight and realised that yes life can be tough, but its not bad and I need to return to the fun, out going, social guy that I am. DONE ha. thats all over with I can finally move on and concentrate on the important parts of my life and sort my career out. Its that time in my life where I'm closing in on the big 30 in a year and a half and certainly feel I'm not where I planned to be in my life at this stage. So, I need to pull my finger out and go and grab every single opportunity out there. PMA right! ha.

As of next week I will be back in London as a resident and move into a place very central. I cannot wait to get in to be honest, will help to give me so much time in my life, and provide me with a lot of convenience with work and any other projects I choose to get involved in. Its kind of nice right now shopping for new furniture to put in the new place, and it excites me that I'm heading into a new stage in my life. It also means I can go out in London more ha ha, one thing that I have been dying to for so long. Social life to go up, which is something I need and something that always makes me happy when I get to see friends more regularly.

Work - well the modeling has been very very quiet of late. Not just myself has been feeling the strain of very few opportunities in London at present. Again the sorry state of the economy is what is to blame. I hope lots of you saw my Nivea Commercial, and those who paused it hopefully saw my sweaty arm pit too!!!! ha ha ha, shocking ha. Its nice to see the work I've done and be proud of it, even though it was just a raised head and a smile! ha.

Presenting on the casino channel is still plodding along and keeping me busy. Feeling better 2 days ago I decided to do the Gangnam Style dance live on air!! It was brilliant! And then doing a 5 minute producing job, got all other presenters doing the dance live on air too! So much fun! And they say when you are happy you sing and dance right?! ha I will now annoy people for being too happy. Surely not.

LOVE LIFE - Well, Well..............ha ha you are dreaming if anyone really believed I would put about that on here ha ha ha. Sorry just a wind up. But if Mila Kunis is reading this and gets bored of Ashton Kutcher, I am still single! ha

A weekend ahead of sorting out everything for my big move into London followed by a Halloween filled with work actually! Makes a change right but I will be mixing presenting on the casino channel sunday, monday and wednesday with a modeling job for a sportswear company Tuesday and a trip into the This Morning studios Wednesday too. Yep back on the TV doing something or other so look out for that one! ha.

Thanks again for taking the time out to read my blog, any feedback is greatly appreciated believe me and will respond to all.

Saturday, 13 October 2012

The Last 2 weeks

Its been an up and down 2 weeks I must admit in so many ways. Works very quiet, and I in myself have been up and down like a yoyo. My mind is constantly running and trying very hard to slow it down, and start taking a breather from everything that life is currently throwing at me. I'm not moaning about my life here one bit believe me, I guess it doesn't matter what job you do at times, or how people perceive your life, its all down to how you feel. Right now its about making decisions and importantly making the right decisions in order to move forward and start achieving what I want in life. I'm 29 in April and certainly not getting younger and its time I need to start getting prepared for what the future could bring. If this means calming down and being sensible then so be it. I need to ensure that I haven't got any distractions because that always seems to be the hardest thing, something that I struggle so much with.


There have been so few castings around for modeling work its frightening. This is so often the busiest time of the year for me and for a lot of people but even after the Olympics nonsense has died down it has gone even slower it seems. Its the nature of the industry I know and its not something that I'm new too, I've been doing it amazingly for 5 and a half years! Unbelievable really. So know the quiet times are tough and all, just still haven't found a way of dealing with it.

The casino channel is still flowing which is a good thing and still very grateful for it as well. Apart from climbing the imaginary Chard and running along Tower Bridge whilst on air, its all been fairly tame ;-) ha ha. If you watch channel 863 you will know about both of those activities ha.


I've been doing a fair bit of this of late, nothing too crazy but any chance of seeing a mate I have been doing it. I guess it might be my way of not being on my own, something that I used to be very happy with, but now I struggle with so much. Not sure whether thats because of the change from living in a relationship with someone to nothing, I'm not sure. But its all good and not complaining one bit about anyone I have spent time with, they are all good people thats for sure.

One thing I learnt very recently on a trip to center parks for my mates surprise 30th birthday, is how much people change when they get older. Its not a bad thing at all, its just life. When you find yourselves in different situations in your life everyone changes slightly. Being around my best mates was absolutely amazing. But when you have couples and single people in a close proximity it becomes very difficult. Its hard at times seeing couples so close when your there on your own going crazy like I always do. Just made me realise that I'm rather unstable at present. That takes a lot for me to say that must admit. YOYO BOY!

Wow that got a bit deep there! Moving swiftly on to some good news hopefully coming next week. Work and moving my ass into London finally to a new place that I cannot wait to get too. That will help me start moving forward with everything thats going on.

Apologies for the weird post, just sometimes this is the best way to get my stuff off my chest.